Waiting Till You Get Good?
I’ve been struggling with this idea for years. When will I get good, or am I good now? I've been telling my friends and family for years now that I’m building up my portfolio. I need a few more. To be honest, it’s an excuse that I use to cover up my own anxiety.
I’m not saying that building your portfolio is bad. Not at all, but when you just build and don’t post you work to the public, are you even a writer?
Yes, you are still a writer but only a writer to you and those close to you. But if a tree falls in a forest and nobody sees it, did it really fall over?
It’s been a struggle. I write, and with my style of mixing prose and screenwriting, I tend to look at my work and say, “this is bad” or “It’s not good enough.” Which is not true and true at the same time.
How am I supposed to know if what I write is good if people don’t react to it?
This only goes so far, though. If you want to make it big or have a community on Medium, Youtube, Tik Tok, Instagram, etc., you need to continue pumping out stuff without caring what people think of your work. Because when you start, there’s no one reading, watching, caring to see if you are good or bad.
So when do you start care?
Probably when you have a small following, but even then, you can’t just listen to every feedback you get. It’s like picking a fast food joint to eat at. Somedays you want Mcdonalds and other days you want A&W.
So back to the topic at hand. Waiting till you get good? Sure, you can wait, keep practicing, and get better. But don’t wait too long; at some point, you’ll never get things out. You won’t know if you’re good or bad until someone says you’re good or bad. Still, it doesn’t matter because what matters is that you're trying to express yourself. What matters is that you’re willing to grow and change. What matters is that you love what you are doing. What matters is you, because no one is going to live your life.
Everything comes in a balance.
Thanks for reading.
